I wrote a little post 9x21 ditty, mostly to get it out of my system. Thought about expanding it to a full one-shot, but I don’t have the time at the moment. But this is how I imagine the 9x22 opening scene.
I wanted to write a post e3 fic, but I couldn't justify Jay's actions no matter how hard I tried. Still, I was desperate to reconcile my frustrations with his exit, so this fic was born. It's my attempt to bring some sense to an illogical situation. Enjoy!
I keep seeing this GIF. And I thought I would remind everyone that this happened LESS THAN 24H AFTER THEIR FIRST KISS. THIS LEVEL OF COMFORT/INTIMACY IS JUST… I am going to—
I’m writing a Upstead fic that will hopefully help me reconcile my many frustrations with Jay’s exit. It’s not really a post 10x03, but it will address all the unresolved feelings around it. Here’s a glimpse of the first few paragraphs.
Coming later today!
Writing this piece was extremely intimidating (and daunting, too). When you step out of your comfort zone you feel exposed, vulnerable, and for reasons I can’t explain, that’s how I feel about posting this.
I hope you’ll enjoy it. ❤️
Jay leaving intelligence to preserve his marriage is 100% in character. I believe that wholeheartedly. But recent articles and their wording, makes it hard for me to think that’s what will happen. It almost seem Jay is leaving Chicago altogether. Am I reading too much into it?
End scene: Hailey runs to Trudy’s desk, looks for the envelope, but the pile of mail is gone. She feels defeated. But then Trudy holds it up and says, “Looking for this?”
I’ve never seen Upstead’s relationship as a trauma response. Yes, there was trauma, but it only made their connection stronger, their foundation that much deeper. To discard it as such is a disservice to the characters and the fans.
#ChicagoPD
“There was really no way to write out Jay Halstead that made sense for Hailey Upton […] But there were plenty of ways to do it better […] There were ways to respect fans […] This show hasn’t done that, and it honestly feels like they never had any intention of doing so.” YES!
I’m going to be a rebel and write a FaceTime/phone sex fic because I can’t wrap my head around the fact that UPSTED HASNT SPOKEN TO EACH OTHER SINCE JAY LEFT. UGH.
Like, not even a small mention that Hailey has been talking to Jay? Phone call? Txt? Email? Ugh 😣 They are just going to milk this and will come back in the fall finale. Mark my words.
It’s been a while since I posted a fic. I’m excited (nervous) to say that I have one coming Mon. The fic was born from a need to simply write. I dont have a plan or an outline. This me is letting go n accepting that it’ll be good enough. I hope to bring u guys along for the ride
Hailey still hasn’t been given a chance to speak Greek on the show. But now I don’t want it because Jay won’t be there to look on like the proud husband he is.
This is the most nervous I’ve been about posting a fic. This fic is about
#upstead
finding each other, and also about me reclaiming something I lost. So, while this may seem different from my other works, I hope you'll stilll tag along for the ride.
Also, when taking about worried husband Jay, I want to see pissed off husband Jay in the interrogation room. Like, “Do you realized what you did?YOU ALMOST KILLED MY WIFE!” I want 3x17 Jay to come back.
Guys, this moment will have nothing to do with the Roy story line. It will most likely be Jay and Hailey interrogating a suspect connected to the Mak’s kidnapping (her uncle?), and Ruzek being hotheaded, barging into interrogation room and throwing hands! That’s all.
The fact the her hair can go from pony to down (in a short time span) and look amazing both ways is AMAZING. In my experience, I have to chose one or the other 😅
I can't thank you all enough for the positive feedback on the 1st ch. of this fic. I felt hugged and warm inside. 🥰 I wish that could be said about this ch, but we're still in the midst of it all. Without further ado, here’s the next installment.
So, I have this belief that e03 sets up Jay’s departure from Intelligence, but he will come back for a final/official goodbye in later episode. Tell me if I’m grasping at straws here.
One least thing…
Upstead was meticulously developed. SEASONS (plural!) were spent on building a solid foundation for their eventual relationship. They were each other’s safety nets. True soulmates. Just… perfect.
No one can ever erase that.
Hey everyone! I know I said this before, but I wrote a smut little ditty to help me cope with the fact that Upstead will no longer be on my television. So here is it.
Thinking Out Loud
I guess this week we've learned that all good things come to an end. I'm still in my feelings and my heart is still in pieces. Writing has always been my escape, and being able to bring you guys on this journey with me has been incredible. (1/2)
I have so many feeling right now. In my head I know Jay and Hailey are in touch, daily even - little texts, quick phone calls … but this episode is painting a different picture. 😩
New update! It's a short, sweet chapter, but I wanted to get it out there. I hope you enjoy it. Also, happy Mother's Day to everyone who celebrates, and a big hug to those (like me) who find this day a little bittersweet. ❤️ Happy reading!
It hurt to read this. In the back of mind my I still held hope JLS would make a small cameo to close the Jay Halstead chapter on CPD - to give Upstead the ending they deserved 😞
Happy Monday! I think having snowstorms in the east coast equates to me having time to sit down and write. So here's the next chapter. Happy reading! ☺️
Also, can’t log off tonight without slow clapping for Tracy Spiridakos. She makes me feel all the feelings. Her talent is out of this world. Can’t wait to see how she will continue to rip my heart apart this season.
Happy new year! Hope you guys had a great holiday break. Here's the next installment of this fic, and once again, I can't thank you guys enough for your support and kind words. As always, happy reading! ❤️
Thanks to all who reached out and sent your good wishes the last few days. I'm back to feeling like myself and happy to be able to share this chapter. 🥰 I will see you guys in the comments.
Big thanks to
@chucklecanvas
for the new header ❤️
Am I delulu or does this interview gives us a bit of hope for an Upstead happy ending? Because we all know what Hailey is actually feeling. She might have moved forward, because that’s what’s expected, but WE ALL KNOW OUR GIRL IS HEAD OF HEEL KN LOVE WITH HER HUSBAND.
I’m in my Upstead feels today (sorry). Heartbroken that I won’t be seeing them on my screen. I hadn’t wanted to accept this, but GS seems firm on her statements about JLS not returning. I’ve gone through the stages of grief and I guess I’ve arrived at acceptance, and it hurts 💔
This is coming to you bright and early (before I chicken out and don’t post). I'm glad that despite the angst, you guys are still tagging along for the ride! There's more angst ahead, but trust the process. 😉
(Please see TW)
Here’s the next chapter. I’ve gone back and forth about the direction I wanted to take. So, I hope you guys enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing it. 🥰 See you guys in the comments (for real this time)!
You're not imagining it- it's a new, smutty update, which is fitting since it's hump day. Sorry for the delay, your girl caught the vid and she was down for the count. But doing much better now!
I hope you enjoy this chapter. See you in the comments!