Today is a month since surgery, and I'm thrilled to be able to share these first "after" photos w/ you. Some before/afters in the following tweets as well. There is still a lot of healing to be done, but I was literally crying tonight with how happy I am.
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This is Lauri Carleton.
Or rather, was.
She flew a pride flag at her shop in Cedar Glen, California.
And on Friday, someone shot her in the head for it.
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Wonderful experience at Chile’s tonight!
Ordering drinks, waitress said, “and for you, sir?”
Me: “it’s ma’am”
Her: “oh, sorry ma’am.”
Then provided great service all evening.
That’s all it takes, folks. We really don’t want much.
Lauri was an ally. A small business owner. A wife, a mother of nine kids in a blended family.
My heart is crushed for those who knew her and had her ripped away.
She’s a hero who wouldn’t back down because of hate.
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Since this is being seen by many, to anyone seeing this: you deserve to be loved for who you are. 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
Hope you can find a bit of love and peace today 💜💜💜
And just to be very clear - I did not know Lauri. I wish I had. She seems like she was an amazing woman.
Thanks to Mountain Provisions Cooperative for sharing this photo of her on IG.
Now that the Babylon Bee is back, here’s a reminder:
1. The Babylon Bee was hilarious years ago when it was Christians making fun of themselves: “Worship Leader Caught in infinite bridge-chorus loop.” 🤣
2. Then it got sold and now is a different thing in almost every way.
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I just want to say how proud I am of my amazing wife. During the insanity of the last two years, somehow this woman managed to finish a Master’s degree in counseling psychology.
I treasured going to her graduation event today!
I tried church, 1st time in 6 months (spiritual trauma prevented it).
- 15m late
- Back row
- Fighting tears
- Heard wonderful teaching
- Was offered and took communion
- Felt welcome and safe
The love of Christ, y’all.
@LauraRbnsn
Both your story and OP are so terrible!
Related: this is why I *didn’t* push for anxiety meds for a long time (until I had a panic attack that sent me to the ER). I thought sure they’d accuse me of “just wanting drugs”.
Same thing for wanting something to help me sleep 😞
@zacharyhunt90
@AaronGoodwine
How dare you, Zachary. I'm hiding this, and would appreciate you deleting it entirely.
You looked at a hurting community and compared them to Satan. How dare you.
Remember for every Duggar or Gothard or Wilson or Driscoll…
There’s far more you’ve never heard of who do similar damage and fly under the radar.
The worst thing that could happen with
#ShinyHappyPeople
would be churches saying “thank God my church isn’t like them.”
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Can I brag? I advocated for myself in a medical appointment! They offered something, I told them I needed something different, and they were like "great, we'll make that happen." I'm proud of me.
We as Christians need to be good at recognizing when something has changed and is no longer the thing we used to enjoy. Whether that’s a church that’s gone off the rails, a political party that’s embraced harmful views, or a satire site.
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Can I ask for prayers? Tomorrow is a day I never wanted.
How it started: in 2016 we moved here to help plant a healthy church.
How it’s going: U-haul is loaded to start leaving. This whole town is triggering after spiritual abuse and betrayal by the church we loved so much. 1/4
While some Bee headlines are still funny (today: “Pastor Spontaneously Chokes Up At Same Point In All 5 Services”) please remember that the Bee and its editor are actively harmful to many individuals, spreading toxic views under the guise of humor.
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Misgendered by my therapist yesterday.
Talking about an issue my wife and I are processing differently, and she says “well, men and women process things differently.”
When I emailed about it, she apologized, but added “I was thinking biologically.”
So… need a new therapist.
Evangelicals have ruined so many queer lives and continue to do so, and inflict harm on those they do not ruin.
They deserve every scream we could direct at them. But we keep being like “Friend. Please. Stop hurting us.”
I think this is what Jesus meant by “love your enemy.”
Today, Kat and I celebrate our 10000th anniversary (16th, if you prefer decimal to binary).
So much has changed.
We both have new names, and I’m legally a woman now.
We were deep in evangelical circles, now in circles that focus on the love of Christ.
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I’ve seen many pastors regularly condemn sex before marriage. They say that it will ruin the marriage.
Most of them openly admit they had sex before marriage.
And most of them give sermon series on “healthy marriage” in which they use theirs as a primary example.
I’m confused.
“Ask any parent, and they’ll tell you just how sinful newborns are.” I heard this so long, “sinful from birth”.
Now it makes me so sad to recognize how many Christian parents see their kids as terrible from the first day.
Proposal: Any male pastor who strictly follows the Billy Graham Rule shall have his title changed to "Men's Pastor".
His pay shall be reduced by some amount to recognize he will only meet with at most half the church.
Non-affirming friends, gather around. We need to talk.
I understand you have a difference of opinion about the acceptability of queer and trans people. And I get that.
But one side is killing the other, and have been forever. And we need you to speak against it.
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I’m getting hair extensions on Thursday. And a “topper” which will naturally cover my bald spot and thicken my bangs.
I tried on just the topper in store tonight, and even though the color was wrong, I was smiling and giggling in the mirror. I looked *pretty*.
I’m so excited!
Big transition week coming up:
1. Monday: 1st time getting my hair colored, and making plan for extensions.
2. Wednesday: first consult with my surgeon for facial feminization surgery!
Prayers & encouragement for both are welcome, I'm getting nervous re: surgical consult.
Name a job (other than pastor) where someone can:
1. Violate company policies
2. Resulting in suspension (likely with pay) for multiple months
3. Be welcomed back at an all-hands meeting
4. Without apologizing
5. To a standing ovation
I’ll wait.
TW: Matt Chandler
Dear non-affirming friends,
I was you. Very recently. And for a long time. Let me show you your future.
I met my first gay friend 20 years ago next month. I haven’t heard from him in a decade, I assume because he rightly grew tired of me quietly judging him.
1/9
Woah - this thread is getting some attention. I have nothing to promote. But if you're here, I hope you know how worthy of love you are, and that you're having a wonderful evening.
Y’all - I just changed my California Driver’s License! Name, Gender, of course, but also… blonde!
Temp license for now, real one should arrive in 2-3 weeks, and then I get to start changing *allll* the things 🥳
@LauraPowellEsq
On the of chance that this question is sincere:
I just came out as trans at age 40, born in 1982 (very elder millennial).
And it was hard, because I’m married, have two kids, had a steady job, etc.
That kind of change when your life is so established is Really Hard™️
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My 12yo just knocked on our door and said they needed a hug.
And that’s just the most relatable thing in this world.
So, sending hugs to anyone who wants or needs one. 🫂🫂🫂
I got my official new Driver's License with my name, photo, and "F" on it! One more step in legal transition down, and now I can start changing things like my credit card, health insurance, etc - I'm so excited!!!
Sometimes I really want to just say “fine” to those who say I can’t be trans and Christian.
Being told you don’t belong over and over and over… at some point you say “fine, I’ll leave”, right?
Thankful for those who make space for me.
💜💜💜
Prayers for complicated emotions tomorrow, and a fresh start in the Los Angeles area, and for God’s providence in providing safe relationships where we can heal and try loving again. 4/4
Mind if I do a glow-up?
Spring of 2022 (panicking omg I might be trans), 2023 (probably first time I felt cute), and 2024. To all of y’all trans folks early in transition: it’s a long journey, and you’re beautiful at every step.
🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵
If you want to be a girl, you can just be a girl.
I wish I could give that “guy” in the before picture a hug and tell her that it’ll be ok, and it’ll be worth it.
If that’s like you, feel free to reach out via DM. I know it’s scary. Sending love and hugs.
If you want to be a girl you can just be a girl.
Honestly dear one if you want to be a girl, you probably already are. And I know it feels like there are a million reasons to not become who you are. But not being you isn't going to get easier.
@Beloved3nVA
The problem is that these days the Bee’s unfunny takes are actively hateful, not just jokes that miss.
Any comedian has misses, but hate is hate, even if it was “just a joke”
@webminky
I'll hide/block throughout the day - I don't know where they all come from. And why they don't have better things to do than troll me for *checks notes* thanking someone for kindness.
These days it’s almost entirely harsh and scoffing speech, frequently targeting the LGBTQ+ community and giving wildly unfair takes about various liberal individuals. For example: (2/4)
One year ago today, I started Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT).
I’m so thankful I was able to do this, and for everyone who has been a support and those who loved me because I was becoming *me*. Thank you for joining this
#CelestialJourney
!
Know the difference:
Pride (opposite of shame): Bible calls it good. Celebrated by queer folk in June.
Pride (opposite of humility): Bible calls it sin. Demonstrated by evangelicals in June.
Prideful evangelicals: listen to your proud queer friends, please.
I cried. I cried hard. In that moment, Keller was clearing away the shadow, so that I could see the light of Christ.
Today, Keller is with Christ, and his view of Christ will never be obscured by shadow again.
Rest, Tim. And thank you. (3/3)
I just saw that apparently singles and singleness are being attacked.
Dear singles:
You are whole. You are loved. You are enough. Or Kenough. You are not broken or unwanted, you are amazing and should be treasured friends and members of any community.
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14-days post-op and the absolute best news I can share is that my gender dysphoria around my face is like... 80% lower than it was 3 weeks ago. I feel like I have a feminine face that is healing, rather than a masculine face. And emotionally that makes a huge difference!
Just in case I’m being too much of a downer lately…
I got my first sexy bra a few days ago and I feel kinda hot when wearing it.
So there’s that 🤷🏼♀️
(Men, please don’t make me regret this tweet)
@AriDrennen
I'm 15" taller than my partner. It's kinda comical, and I like wearing heels, which makes it even more of a thing. But like... it's us. It's who we are. She's short. I'm tall. We're in love. It's great!
queer christians wanting to keep
following jesus despite all the hate they get from homophobic christians is a testament of how faithful queer christians are
Dang. What a strong, positive take on mental health, putting your kids in a better spot, advocating for yourself, and realizing that some people just aren’t there for you, and that you do what you can. Worth watching.
The complications of marrying black when in the Royal Family, how the British press haunted Prince Harry and his wife Meghan.
He speaks about how he was let down by his own family, something he was not allowed to say too.
Press thugs like
@piersmorgan
continue to insult them.
I heard that we’re hotter when we’re emotionally healthier? Let’s try a lil side by side for science.
1. 2019, two years before I left the cult.
2. 2024, nearly 2 years after transition started.
I spanked my children. And that means I have to say the worst sentence: I abused my children.
Today, I apologized to them for it, telling them I never should have done it.
@TGC
- preach repentance, not abuse.
Well, today’s Father’s Day is a bit different for me.
It’s my first since coming out. I have a supportive dad, who I’m grateful for.
But I’m not “father” anymore. Instead, I am “Maddy” (Mom/Daddy), and I love it.
So today my fam will be celebrating my very first Maddy’s Day!
Rather, a healthy church says “in what ways *are* we like them? What could we learn here, even if we know we’re not as toxic.”
I was in Mark Driscoll’s church.
I was in Steve Morgan’s Network.
The latter did *far* more damage in my life and family.
At what point do you just say to friends “I think our paths diverge now.”
I’ve known them for 20 years. They’re my last college friends. They’ve been there for me at so many times.
And they have no interest in respecting my transition. 😭
I'll avoid posting any spoiler photos from the actual Eras Tour, but here's my 12yo and I before going to see Taylor Swift! It was amazing, and we had the absolute best time 😊
Dear 2nd Amendment Rights Advocates,
We tried it your way.
Thousands of kids are dead.
You were wrong.
Admit it.
And help fix it.
Please and thank you.
Can y'all celebrate this part of my
#CelestialJourney
with me? 🥳
Today, on International Women's Day, my therapist diagnosed me w/ gender dysphoria. This enables referrals to the care that I need! And she changed my gender to "Female".
This smile is so real. 🏳️⚧️💜
Younger me: "I've never hated Jews, I don't understand anti-semitism".
Also younger me: "I shouldn't trust Jewish scholars on the OT, they misread it so badly they rejected Jesus."
Anti-semitism comes in many forms, and this is one of them: A high level of disrespect.
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If y’all can send prayers, hope, and love, I have a very hard convo coming up this weekend.
I can’t share details, but it could (and probably will) go quite badly.
@TGC
How can you stand for violently abusing children for their “wrongs” (according to who?), while also pretty much never, ever, apologizing for your articles, no matter how many people say you’ve harmed them?
You advocate for treating children worse than you accept for yourself.
If y’all can be sending kind thoughts, prayers, etc - I’m having a rough time right now. And I’m not even really sure why - just a general mass of heavy things I guess 🤷🏼♀️
November will be my HRT-versary, but also the anniversary of some brutal psychological abuse.
It’s hard.
For Tim Keller:
The day after we left our church, I was out driving, alone. And I was destroyed. I had just spoken with the man I thought was my best friend, and saw the beginning of his abandonment of me.
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An update, since many of you quite kindly expressed concern.
I am not ok. But I did talk to my partner for an hour tonight, and took my anti-anxiety med, and am at least not spiraling like I kind of was earlier tonight.
I’m not ok, but I will be.
@femalebased1
@zacharyhunt90
@AaronGoodwine
Anyone can read it. Click “view hidden replies” on my tweet.
In fact, I might have made it *easier* for people to find it.
But also: my tweet, my rules. He didn’t present any perspective or facts that were relevant to the situation. He just wanted to preach a sermon. No thanks.
Just a reminder: trans people aren’t freakish, we aren’t even super rare. We fought hard to be ourselves, but shouldn’t have had to. We’re not an “issue”, we’re people.
We’re your neighbors, and not any less worthy of dignity and inclusion than anyone else.
“In hundreds of years they’ll test the DNA of your bones and it’ll say you’re a man.”
I get this one frequently and it’s actually interesting. Let’s talk about those future people decoding my bones.
B/c my DNA isn’t all they’ll find.
TW: transphobia, violence, self harm
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🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️1 year ago today!🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
I am so thankful to everyone who has supported me. My wife asked me today if it was worth it, and I said "it's been magical beyond my wildest dreams." I never knew I could be this happy.
🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️
Hey all - I'm very, very excited to finally get to re-introduce myself. Hi, I'm Celeste! 🏳️⚧️
You can read more about it here!
Love you all, and so thankful to so many of you for supporting me in getting to this point!💜
@dalepartridge
Can’t believe I have to say this, but the Church is the BRIDE of Christ.
The Church’s preferred pronouns are she/her. The Biblical church is feminine.