Long overdue gift art to Watchy. Hope it looks alright, been ages since I've done a fully shaded artwork.

Feeling the consequences of my depression. Socially, physically, and now financially.

Join millions who have switched to Grok.

*Update* Sister needs surgery in future. Not told what at this point in time. But is cleared from the hospital and sent home for now.

Sister has gone to hospital. :-(.Not sure what is going on. It's the unknown that's making me worried.

My sketch for the Muscle-Fur's drawing collaboration. This day's theme was BBQ. Was struggling for an idea, so I ended up drawing a Tiger struggling to eat a hotdog due to his beefy arm being too big. With encouraging words from @AlfMaywill

The awful feeling of being ripped off in a Ebay transaction. Paid for 2 items, but the seller only sent me 1. Tried to ask about the 2nd missing item. But the seller is unreachable. Issued a request for help, but need a statutory declaration witness to sign the form. Gave up.

Sometimes I sadly wonder how many Dicks people have to suck to get where they are today.

I know I'm sounding selfish right now. And I'm trying not to be, honestly. But I wouldn't mind being included in a group flex or even some kind of tasteful "intimate" activity. It makes me wonder if my dragon persona is just not, attractive enough as to why I'm avoided.

My trouble is trying not to sound so pushy and desperate. But I sadly get a little frustrated when I try to gently express interest, but never taken into consideration for months on end, and basically left forgotten.

Seeing my 'friends' doing group commissions and project, makes me wish I could somehow be more available to be involve in similar activates. But somehow, I always end up missing out when opportunities come round.

"No use watering a plant that's already dead".Advice I really need to apply to myself.

Sadly July wasn't a productive month for me. So here are the only sketches/scribbles I drew for the past 30 days.

I'm struggling to sleep because my mind can't stop thinking what I'm an horrible and selfish person I am. :-(.

Saw a friend was online, and they were in this nice simple world. So I wanted to take a photo. (Well I took several, but this was the only "good" one.). Decided to try and give Fox a turn in the spotlight. Still need to improve on my posing, and camera work.

There are many times where I wish I could just sit down at talk with people, and somehow try and work things out. Maybe not end up as friends, but just, somehow just get along again. But I know deep down, that I have no chance at such a request.

Sometimes I wish I knew better where I stand when it comes to friendships. Just tell me we are through, so I can give up any hope there is some kind of redemption for myself. And which case, why do you still follow me if we are long over?. I just, don't understand anything.

Since gamers are playing the trending game. I'd thought I'd share my attempt at scaling a Mountainous "Peak". Retweeting an old artwork.

One of my favourite MMD worlds just updated with a new song. So I can finally do this! XD. Base model by Moopdrea.Song: Pedro by Raffaella Carra

Some pictures I took while world hopping. I still need to work on my photography and posing. Exveemon base made by @Lunar_Eyes .Recoloured by me.

Honestly, everything feels pointless. I feel like crying, but it's pointless. I want to speak my mind, but it's pointless. I crave to have fun, but it's pointless. I wish the friends I desire would care. I wish, I can no longer see, that I can't not hear, and I my voice is gone.