REMINDER! THIS WILL BE ON THE THIRD OF OCTOBER! I did an oopsie while editing the thumbnail as I was so excited. I mixed up the months. BUT ON THE UPSIDE: Y'ALL HAVE STILL TIME TO JOIN IN SO PLEASE DOOOOOOOOO!

Me doing this NOT expecting to become the next big thing does not mean I'm not worthy of your time. My personality might, but thats subjective. But I do appreciate everyone who interacts with me, watches my streams, supports me. Thank you for your time. (14/14)

I dont eat on stream. I do respect the time of others. I'm always on time if not early for collabs(which appareantly isnt that common but that might be the german in me). If I have to call it off, I will do so as early as possible and I will give you the exact reason why. (13/14)

Maybe they think I'm not passionate enough? Not trying enough? Not reliable? Not worthy of support? A bad person to collab with, a wild card? I dont know if thats the vibe I give. If so, I'm sad and disappointed of myself. I always thought I was professional enough. (12/14)

And I do appreciate all the support, it makes my day everytime and is the lifeline of streaming. <3 With that sorted, it got me thinking further. Asking myself if me insisting in hobbying this thing prevents others to collab or interact with me. (11/14)

But I dont ask or beg for subs. I dont want to run ads, or as little as possible. I feel bad when doing a „call to action“, so I rarely do. Because I dont want to give the feeling that this will be about money first. I want to make a fun and firendly space. (10/14)

Considering me worthy to show to their viewers, so cool! If someone subscribes, or drops a prime sub, of course it makes me happy. It means that they enjoy their time and they want to show their appreciation and support. Its a big deal, and its an awesome feeling! (9/14)

I want to meet people, interact with them. Hear their stories, tell them mine. The more, the better! Of course, what are we talking about. My heart jumps everytime I get raided, it doesnt happen that often but its crazy! And I cant thank these people enough. (8/14)

It was just not my priority. My priority was to express myself. To feel myself. To actually create something to be passionate about. And if that, one day, would take off, all the better. If I wouldnt care for viewers, why stream in the first place? (7/14)

Plus the chance of that actually happening are „one-in-a-million“ and it would've been very demotivating for me having just that quite unlikely scenario as a goal. Which, by all means, is NOT a bad goal to aim for. If thats your motivation, go for it!! (6/14)

Because I wanted to distance myself from that over-monetized theme that is going on in the internet. I dont want everything to be about money first. Would just feel weird to me. (5/14)

There was a good chance that this journey ended after a few streams – if I didn't enjoy it. But that did not happen. Why do I insist on that I never started streaming with the goal of „making it big“? (4/14)

To get to know new people from all over the world. To get some practice in spoken english. To force myself to do stuff I never dared to try. Make experiences that I would avoid normally. And most important: have fun and enjoy myself doing it. (3/14)

And now I wanna talk about it. Because it isn't true, first of all. Yes, I always said and still stand by the point that my streaming started out as an experiment and yes, a hobby. To prove myself that I can overcome my comfort zone. (2/14)

A short while ago, someone implied that because I stream as a hobby, and not to try to make a living, I wouldn't care for viewers, raids, subs etc. Although I'm sure they didnt mean it in a bad way, that statement stuck with me and got me thinking. (1/14)

Kinda long post about some thoughts I had in the last few weeks. Sorry for the thread but I wanted to put it somewhere, as I still struggle with insecurity. Thread below. 🎨@banbandraws

REMINDER! THIS WILL BE ON THE THIRD OF OCTOBER! I did an oopsie while editing the thumbnail as I was so excited. I mixed up the months. BUT ON THE UPSIDE: Y'ALL HAVE STILL TIME TO JOIN IN SO PLEASE DOOOOOOOOO!

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