One of the best things I ever did was LET THAT HURT GO, forgive people who weren’t even sorry & forgive myself. Wasn’t doing anything but hurting myself by holding on to that anger & regret.
Can we talk about how hard it is trying to build a healthy/stable relationship as an adult when you never had an example of it as a kid .. like being raised around independent, single women & then trying to teach YOURSELF how properly love a man is crazy 🥱
Tbh anybody I’ve ever loved, I still love. Regardless of the situation, my love never stopped I just had to get use to life without certain people for my sanity.
To give all of yourself to someone just to find out they’re giving part of themselves to someone else is crazy.. and ppl love to say “that’s why you don’t give all of yourself”. But that’s just ME when I’m in love. I should be able to feel safe in a committed relationship..
God has just been revealing stuff back to back .. stuff I def never expected. But, I can’t even be mad, it’s exactly what I prayed for. Keep revealing and removing Lord.
It’s so expensive to be a woman 😭 Hair, nails, brows, lashes, waxes etc and all of this needs be done at LEAST monthly, some stuff every two weeks. I love being put together though, it’s a must.
When Lori Harvey said “what I wanted at 21, I don’t want at 25, I don’t even know her anymore.” I really felt that. I’ve changed so much in just a few years. 🦋
It was all fun & games until I started saying NO, learned to set boundaries & stop overextending myself to everyone. Now I’m “being weird” & you know what? that’s okay .. I’ll be that 👌🏾
It’s crazy how you notice all the red flags you let slide after the relationship/friendship is already over. Like dang I was really dumb ash all because I loved you..
It’s so hard to show your soft side when your kindness is literally always being taken for weakness. Ig I’m going to have to act like a mean nigga for the rest of my life🙄
I’ve been working so hard on my anger. Being mad, irritated & letting things affect my mood all the time is so draining. I want to be calm & be able to control my energy even when things come along to throw it off.
My life is in such a weird place right now. I’m not the person I use to be but at the same time I’m not fully grown into the person I’m becoming. I’m at an awkward & honestly uncomfortable medium ..
1/2 Starting off, I thought my healing journey was going to be all about forgiving others and what they’ve done to me. Hardest thing was realizing I also have to work through things I’ve done to others, getting to the root of why I’ve done those things-
I just want friends I can have Bible study dates with, send my new fav gospel songs to, go to church with, have like a lil prayer circle & just grow together in our relationship with God 🥺
Trying to be a good friend during a depressive episode is hard. Then once you come out of it, explaining how it was literally you & not them, is even harder. Not everyone will understand it ..
We all have our flaws.. but if someone you claim to love points out something you do that bothers them and your response is “well that’s just how I am”.. you don’t care about them fr!
Can’t nobody throw any of my actions in my face. I know what I’ve done and I’ll never play victim in a situation where I was clearly in the wrong. I’m far from perfect but I can own up to my mistakes and move on from them.. that’s apart of ACCOUNTABILITY & GROWTH.