it started basically this stupid cookie run gc with me and my other crk friends
I noticed weird behavior from Ceder as he's about to turn 20 and most of us were 14-16, he initiated and reciprocated weird sexual jokes with us all despite his age
I didn't have the courage to speak up about it until another adult member dmed me (I was server owner at the time because the previous took a mental health break) about his strange behavior. I told him politely to knock it off, he said sorry and that he-
"knew people would think that's weird" and i kind of just brushed it off as him promising to not do it again because of course being a mod and acting weirdly with underage members is ...weird and he wouldn't want to anger the previous owner (who had quite the temper)-
A few weeks later, Cam had cute lyrics in his status with the "/dir" (directed) tone tag and i asked him who it was. He confessed to me it was Ceder and i was like oh thats not!!!
but i didn't think anything of it since i assumed it was one-sided and more of an "admire from afar" kind of crush. Then i noticed they started becoming flirtatious with each other and i continued to warn Cam that it's getting gross and for him to stop letting-
They continued to be sappy, flirty and over all really couple-like when interacting in games and stuff. I decided to be a stalker lol, but it didn't take much since Ceder had it openly displayed in his bio that he had a boyfriend.
I panicked and begged Cameron to tell me if he's dating Ceder and he didn't respond to me. I looked at his carrd and it said something about him having a bf. I knew it was Ceder.
I had several panic attacks and threw up when my friend Morgan stepped in and decided to take action for me since i obviously was not going to be doing anything that'd help in that state
He contacted Ceder himself, and obviously Ceder cared more about his image instead of what he was doing. (which is why he's probably restarting his whole online life lmfao)
I wasn't gonna talk on this but I figured I will.
I was pretty damn close to Ceder. I saw him as a brother and he saw me as a little brother, which in hindsight is weird. But I had gotten really close to him and knew him on a more personal level.