I just can’t wait to die.

I’m such a fucking loser dude lol.

I’m so desperate for love and attention just anything to make me feel anything more than the void.

If I weren’t so cowardly I should end it all. I can’t wait to die, it’s all I really want. I don’t deserve a future. Hell no one is even going to respond to this. Just Issolated, just alone.

And God fucking damnit am I ugly. I’m just fat as shit and Ugly. No wonder every girl I don’t chicken out to talk ignores me almost immediately and or after a certain time after a convo. I won’t ever find a partner.

I just feel so empty and lonely all the time. I have friends and family that love me but it’s almost like I can’t connect with anyone. It’s infuriating! I just hope one day I can fix it or one day I wake up as a different person. Because I hate my self and I hate life.

And God do I fucking hate myself. I am so fucking worthless on my own. I’m not good at a God damn thing. Just a waste of space and air. Why am I still breathing when I hate life so god damn much? Why must this God damn torture continue?

I just feel tired of it all. I’m tired of constantly owing people and making people happy with out making myself. I feel like a fucking prisioner in my own body sometimes.

I just feel so lonely and isolated. No is interested in me and I get why but I just don’t understand why I can’t find anyone I could connect too. Why do I feel so lonely and overwhelmed all the time when others my age seem to have shit all figured out.